WHY? February 3, 2011

I hate being disappointed. Well nobody likes the feeling unless you have been screwed, literally.

But again and again, I end up with excuses reasons and I am left wondering if I should actually believe.

I believe in the saying, “Everything happens for a reason.”  He better have a good reason why all these are happening?

One more chance, and I’ll have the final say to all these.

I just hope it happens, that’s all I ask for.

 

 

“I know God wouldn’t give me anything I can’t handle. I just wish he didn’t trust me so much.”

-	Mother Teresa

Fly too high…. January 14, 2011

A conversation with the boyfriend who’s currently in reservist. Sometimes the little things they say can make you feel over the moon. =)

 

Me: I am going to meet the SDN (ex office) gang at Ghandi’s (an eatery at Little India)!

Him: Ya meet ah. I’m here going for obstacle course..flying here and there. Bye.

Me: hahhaa..ok don’t fly too high

Him: Will do, only with you..

 

I know it sounds cheesy.. but I rather my boyfriend talks to me like this then don’t talk at all.

Hello 2011! January 4, 2011

Oh well, I certainly took a long break. I wonder how many of you actually cared? Haha..

I decided to do a post today because I am bored and maybe I owed my blog one.

2010 was a bittersweet year for me. A couple of disappointments, heart breaks..tears but following that was laughter, new friendships more travel done. =) 2010 ended with a blast in Bali. And I can’t wait to go there with the boy.

2011, I am hoping will be a much more better year considering that there are things pending to be done. Hoping to accomplish certain things and when the time comes, it will be out here. =)

Till then.. See ya!

Impulsive.. August 27, 2010

My birthday is in a couple of days time and I feel excited yet not. I was 12 when I decided I do not want to celebrate my birthday with people I don’t really know. I told my parents that having dinner with them was fine with me. And now, being 25, I told my mom that I do not want presents because I have no idea what to do with the ones I got last year. Accessories I have not used and it’s just going to be adding on. This is the first year that my dad is not going to be around. He’s in Qatar for work purposes. hmmmm…..

I have opened a tumblr account out of impulsiveness. I am beginning to like it though I don’t really know what’s the whole purpose for.

I watched ‘The Blind Side’ twice and it made me cry twice too. I just love the movie. I love how Sandra Bullock portrayed her character and she reminds me of myself in the movie.

I managed to cook pasta for the boyfriend because he asked for. It’s quite rare for him to ask me things considering that I do most of the talking in the relationship. hahah.. but when he asks, I give, or at least I try to. Nothing much to tell.. so I am just going to leave you with quotes that I like. =)

“When we first met, I didn’t want to get involved with anyone. I didn’t have the time or energy, and I wasn’t sure that I was ready for it. But you were so good to me, and I got swept up in that. And little by little, I found myself falling in love with you.” – Nicholas Sparks

You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have truly lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love.”

“I’m not upset that you lied to me, I’m upset that from now on I can’t believe you.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

Love & Marriage August 19, 2010

Love and Marriage

A student asks a teacher, “What is love?” The teacher said, “In order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.” The student went to the field, went through first row, saw one big padi, but he wonders… maybe there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one… but maybe there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he starts to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, and he knows he has missed the biggest one, and regrets. So, he ended up going back to the teacher with an empty hand. The teacher told him, “…this is love… you keep looking for a better one, but when it’s too late, you realise you have already missed the person….”

“What is marriage then?” the student asked. The teacher said, “in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick. “The student went to the corn field, and this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake; when he reaches the middle of the field, he picks one medium corn that he feels satisfied with, and goes back to the teacher. The teacher told him, “this time when you were looking for a corn…. you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get…. and this is marriage.”

A Simple Life August 3, 2010

Have you ever helped someone only for it to backfire at you and you end up looking like it all happened because of you? Confused? Don’t be, because it’s not going to get you anywhere.

Things happens for a reason, as much as you try to tell this to yourself sometimes you can’t help but wonder why people do not react the way you expect them to. Expectations? That is something which will always lead you to disappointments. You expect people to tell you things..you expect them to do this and that maybe because you feel like you have the right over them. But when reality hits you hard on your ass, you realise that that was not how it’s meant to be.

I have come to a point where I realise that relationships are not meant to stay the same forever. We drift apart, we change but if it’s meant to stay, it will be there despite the silence. I have grown to accommodate changes in my life and welcome the new feelings and people with open arms and heart. I live a new life everyday and I learn new things. I guess life is best when it’s simple.

I am craving to go on a holiday. Just the two of us. But But But!! When’s the best time?! =((

July 29, 2010

Credits: Tumblr.com

Rants July 14, 2010

Sometimes I really wonder whether do things really happen for a reason? For trips to be cancelled, meetings to be postponed? Is it because the time is not right or it’s not meant to be? But whatever it is, it will happen for good. I am crossing my fingers on this.

Mom’s birthday was a blast and the company made it all the more better though the boyfriend was spending his time in the jungle with his best friends. Speaking of which, I still haven’t got my mom her birthday present yet. Soon soon, mommy!

I saw this female driver who totally enjoyed digging her nose while driving. She was oblivious to me staring at her with a disgusted face. She could even look at me at dig her nose and tilt her head to the side. O.M.G. Do this people even know how they look like when they do these kind of things? I mean like, why do you have to do it in the public? There’s enough germs and bacteria everywhere, we seriously do not need any other contribution.

I know of someone who likes to brag. And brag meaning that person has to be like totally more drama than whatever you say. For eg:
you say: “I know of someone who did this…”
that person say: ” You think that’s bad..I know of someone who did this..and that..and that..plus this..”

I mean like ok, you know half of the world and everybody who does every other thing but why can’t you let someone have their moment? Every time we have a conversation around this person, it has to be pulled towards that person. So now, when we know that person is going to do something like that, we just ignore. I think sometimes being ignorant or acting dumb plays the trick because if you are going to fight back, it’s going to be one long cycle.

I never knew I would make such good friends with my colleagues. I am sad that I am going to be leaving them soon and I am very sure I would not be able to get such good colleagues anywhere else. But change is permanent and everything else is temporary. I am sure the bond between us will stay and for that to happen, we have to put in effort to keep that going. =)

After a long time, I had a good time with the boyfriend yesterday. I really enjoyed it. =)

After Saturday, it’s back to me being a vegan for the next 1 month. Looking forward to tahu sambal, curd rice and Yeeendian foood!

Why? July 9, 2010

“After my first love, I built this suit of armour, so strong, so invulnerable. I came across you. Slowly my guard was let down. So vulnerable to pain and despair. A love so perfect, so beautiful, was the double edged sword. One side so sweet. So dull of worry. So full of love. The other so sharp of worry. So deadly with confusion.”

Beautiful Strangers July 2, 2010

How often do we complain about people acting inconsiderately or unreasonably? But have we ever met someone who made your day? Like a total stranger who has no any obligations towards..? I met not one but two beautiful people and I am glad that these type of people do exist. =) The world is not going to end.

The girls and I went to Samy’s Curry at Dempsey to catch up and have dinner. There was this Amercian couple sitting behind us and having dinner as well. Occasionally, we will smile at each other. We had a ball of time cracking jokes and laughing so hard till Lavanya got herself choked, quite badly. But it was all fun until we asked the waiter for the bill. He told us the most shocking thing. The Amercian couple paid for our bill!

We stood rooted to the ground and wondered whether the waiter was playing a fool. Another waiter came in and told the couple were walking out. We ran after them and asked whether they paid for the bill. The man said yes and the reason was because we all looked so happy and we reminded him of his nieces. He has a whole big group of them and they are around our age. Now, how sweet is that! We talked for about 10mins, snapped a couple of pics with them and we left to Ben & Jerry’s for dessert.

I am glad that I always make it a point to meet the girls. Though we don’t talk to each other every other day but when we meet up for a get-together, it’s the same 10years ago. There’s no ounce of change in any of us just because we are doing different things in life. We still scream and laugh so loud that people think we are crazy. But isn’t thatwhat  bonded us together? I am glad that I have them. =)